Bila Sakaratul Maut Datang Menjemput

Tatkala Kal El menaip entry ini Kal El berada di wad nefrologi PPUM untuk tujuan dialysis. Sejak dalam keadaan kritikal tempoh hari memang Kal El dihantar ke sini (dan bukannya di pusat dialisis PPUM seperti biasa). kerana berdekatan dengan doktor jika berlaku apa=apa yang tidak dijangka. Di sini Kal El ditumpangkan selama 4 jam sahaja dan akan kembali ke wad Kal El setelah dialysis selesai.

Setiba Kal El di wad ini, seorang Hamba Allah di sebelah katil Kal El sedang nazak, menunggu panggilan Illahi dan saudara mara beliau penuh mengelilingi katil. Banyak kali Kal El masuk hospital banyak kali juga sempat melihat malah mendengar tentang kematian tapi inilah kali pertama Kal El melihat dengan mata sendiri seseorang sedang diambil nyawanya untuk menemui Penciptanya.

Memang amat sedih dan sayu sekali keadaan di sini dengan iringan bacaan Yassin yang suci dan bisikan Lailahaillallah (tiada tuhan selain Allah) di telinga pesakit oleh anak lelaki beliau. Syukur
Alhamdulillah beliau mempunyai anak-anak yang soleh. InsyaAllah.

Keadaan ini mengigatkan Kal El, menyedarkan dan menginsafi diri ini apabila tiba giliran Kal El begini siapakah yang akan membisikan kalimah syahadah ke telinga ini? Kal El tak punya anak apatah lagi anak yang soleh. Keadaan ini juga menyedarkan Kal El betapa sakitnya apabila nyawa akan dicabut Sakaratul Maut dan betapa sedikitnya amalan Kal El selama ini sebagai benteng menahan kesakitan tersebut.

Marilah kita sedekah bacaan surah Al-Fatihah untuk Allahyarhammah yang baru pergi mengadap Penciptanya (di kala entry ini sedang ditaip) dan juga kepada diri sendiri sebagai bekalan di akhiran nanti. InsyaAllah.

AlFatihah.

Kal El
Sent from my iPhone

Critical for Awhile...

I was a little critical the past three days that i missed updating this blog and had to sent my laptop home since the nurses were moving me around (transfering me from room to room for better and easier observation). I had to be put on by pep (the near-full-face 

breathing mask in the picture) and had to tolerate the loud beeping of the machine. Blood pressure too had to be taken every hourly as when i had the shortness of breath on thursday my bp shot up and went haywire. Alhamdulillah today im back on venti mask and off the by pep machine. Breathing is slightly better but still have to be oxygen dependent. I am feeling a little frustrated as i was hoping to get better real soon and return home but looks like is getting farther to be reached.

The Effects of MRSA to the Bone

One of the disseminated MRSA affected parts of my body was my index finger. It started in February while I was still in HKL. The HKL Ortho doctor had aspirated a liquid confirmed to be MRSA infected but the swelling did not subside. I was told that nothing more could be done but the exercise the finger as it couldn't be straightened anymore.


When I was in Ampang Hospital the swelling got worse and it started to be painful. When the Ortho doctor there checked and an x-ray was done he told me the bad news - my left index finger had to be amputated. Oh no! Not another limb!But in order to prevent the infection from eating up more of my bones, the finger had somehow to be removed. The bone of my index finger had become hallow and thank God for the prolonged Vancomycin (antibiotics) I had been taking since February for the MRSA had slowed down the infection there.


There is however a lump on my elbow that could somehow be an effect of MRSA. Another x-ray was done and that goodness it was not badly affected. I was afraid if it was, I had to lose the whole arm. Well, I can tolerate having a bilateral Below Knee Amputation but not losing an arm as I am depending much on the arm to move about (at least to shift me from one place to another on the bed)


So I went for a Ray's Amputation of the left index finger at Ampang Hospital somewhere in mid April 2010. Gladly the finger was buried, like my feet, beside my mom's grave. I am sad yes but at the same time I am glad that the infection on the bone was discovered early so that I had to lose no more than a finger. I'll learn to adapt having no index finger somehow.

A Break Too Long!

This blog was abandoned for nearly three months not because I have given up blogging and sharing my story but because I was hospitalized for that duration - I could have posted some entries but not until today that I feel a little better.

It all started after we came back from Cambodia for our long due vacation (I will eventually post about the trip someday). Remember the permanent catheter that was inserted in January? (Refer here) It somehow got infected and that was how things started. I have had this bacteria called MRSA in me when I had my right leg amputated in 2008 and since I am and ESRF (End stage renal failure) patient and diabetic, my immune system is very low thus making me susceptible to this bacteria - each time I am hospitalized.

I went to Ampang Hospital to get treatment for prolonged fever and backache on February 12, 2010 and was admitted, diagnosed with Pneumonia secondary to MRSA (more article on MRSA here). Spent a week there and had to be transferred to HKL to remove the permanent catheter as that was the point of infection (I may have gotten it when hospitalized for the insertion as I had an open wound then) While in Ampang I had another stroke attack affecting the right side of my body. Alhamdulillah my limbs could now be moved after sessions of physiotherapy.

I was discharged from HKL on march 19, 2010. The doctor there suspected that I have abscess in my lungs and set an appointment for me to see a respiratory specialist the very next week. The bronchoscopy done while I was in HKL showed multiple cavities in the right lungs but the presence of puss couldn't be confirmed. Unfortunately only after 2 days being discharged I had to be sent back to Ampang due to severe SOB (shortness of Breath) and was re admitted on March 22, 2010.

After over a month in Ampang I was advised by the specialist in Ampang to be transferred to PPUM (University Malaya Medical Center) as there are no ID (Infectious Diseases - my case, lower respiratory tract infection secondary to MRSA) specialist in Ampang. So, after more than a month in Ampang, I was transferred to PPUM on April 29, 2010.

While in Ampang, the MRSA bacteria had attacked more parts of the body affecting the left stump (yes if you didn't already know, I have lost my left footie too end of last year - will also write about this some time soon hopefully) The bacteria has also attacked my left index finger besides the lungs (that's the reason why its called disseminated MRSA) resulting to more operations being done to drain the puss from the left stump and removal of my left index finger (yup another amputation!)

On the 6th day in PPUM and after another CT Thorax was done, I undergone another surgery to insert a drainage pipe to remove the puss that has been accumulating in my lungs. It is a really satisfactory experience seeing globs of puss coming out of me and being collected in a urine bag. My breathing becomes better (thus the blog entry) although still oxygen dependent. Hopefully everything will be well soon and the MRSA infected be settled and I could go back to my home sweet home.