It Wasn't Time to Leave

I disappeared yet again but it wasn't yet time for me to go. I had been sick(er) these past couple of weeks and thought that I would've made it pass my birthday. I was ready to leave but God proved to me that He was not ready for me to go for good. I had a good scare and had told everyone my last wishes but I guess perjalanan masih panjang untuk Kal El.
This may not be a good note to start blogging again after a while but a new chapter has started in my life a chapter which I have by all means tried to avoid many times but finally had to succumb to - I gave up and gave my life to the machine. I am now a Superman on Dialysis.
After struggling against death for two weeks i realized a day after my 33rd birthday that God wanted me to go through IT so I hastily at 11pm made the decision to finally get KN to send me to the emergency department of Ampang Hospital for my fate to be decided and true enough I had to be put on dialysis for end stage renal failure first thing in the morning. A week has nearly passed and here I am a new person with new hopes and no plans for the future. May God help me. Please do.

Wish List for My 33rd Birthday

Hari ini genap umurku 33 tahun. Dalam usia yang baru hendak merangkak ini pelbagai dugaan dan keperitan hidup telah aku lalui. Berbagai keindahan hidup juga telah aku kecapi. Alhamdulillah jika Kal El masih bernafas hari ini dan syukur atas segala nikmat yang Allah telah dan insyaAllah akan berikan. Setiap dugaan yang Allah beri, Kal El cuba sedaya upaya menempuhnya dengan tabah dan tawakal. Tak banyak yang Kal El mahukan sempena hari jadi yang ke 33 ini. Dari segi material sudah banyak yang Kal El miliki.

So, all I want for my 33rd Birthday are these:

1. I want my family to be forever united and happy. Saling hormat menghormati dan saling sayang menyayangi. Kal El tak mau ada yang bermasam muka, berhasad dengki ataupun iri hati. Pada adik beradik Kal El yang hanya 2 orang, ingatlah tak akan putus air walaupun dicincang.

2. I want good health for Ka'Ngah, Papa and my siblings so that they will live long to see each other grow old and to take care of one another

3. I want Ka'ngah and Papa to be taken good care of sebagaimana mereka telah menjaga kami adik beradik dengan baik dan penuh kasih sayang.

4. I want KN to be forever considered a part of the family even when I am no longer around. KN has sacrificed a great deal for me in our nearly 7 years together and not even my siblings have taken care of me like KN has.

5. When I die, I want my children to be taken care of only by KN and no one else and that KN should be given the financial assistance from what I had left to take care of the fur kids.

And last but not least,

6. I want a SUPERMAN Birthday cake heheheh...

Like this

maybe like this...

or at least like this...

Can Ah?

Happy Birthday Mummy!

(c) CassysCakes

If Mummy was still around, she would have turned 62 today. We've been celebrating our birthdays together since I was a baby (mine will be tomorrow InsyaAllah) I will forever cherish today as the most important day in my life. How I miss sharing my cake with you Mummy and ever since I was deprived of a birthday with you four years ago (you left less than a month before our birthday came), my birthday has always been celebrated with tears but this year I promise I will celebrate both our birthdays like we used to. I promise to celebrate it with a big smile in your remembrance.

Happy Birthday Mummy... Al-Fatihah to you dear mom.